hmmmmmmmmm@ Drake..jap, den Weg werde ich alleine gehen..aber hey, doch kein Grund zum Abschied..woizu bin ich hier im VL??? da kann ich auch ab und zu hier sein^^
also....
Freitag, 15. April 2005
Ich habe nun meine Recherchen seit 2 tagen am LAufen und schon einiege gute internetadressen gefunden.
Als erstes wäre da
www.Draconic.com zu erwähnen. Ein Englisches Forum, ich glaube 5 oder 6 Jahre alt mit recht viele Usern...wesentlich grösser als die DW.
Aber doch etwas komisch da es von vielen Menschenhassenden Drachen bevölkert ist die für eine Revolution á la "rottet die Menschen aus, Drachen an die MAcht" sind. Da werde ich mal ein wenig aufräumen..aber so sehr habe ich mich noch nicht damit beschäftigt, weitere Berichte werden folgen^^
hmm..eine weitre interessante Seite ist eine von Athus.
auf der Seite findet man ein guttes Essay über Athus und seinen Weg zu sich selbst, seinem Drachen. Tja, alles recht gut beschrieben auch wenn es Englisch ist doch verständlich.Ich ahbe per E-Mail kontakt zu ihm aufgenommen und werde so etwas versuchen zu erfahren^^
Ein Zitat aus seiner Seite:
Bio
Some of you have known me in RL(real life) for as long as 13 or so years now, some of you have known me OL(online) for almost 2 years now, and a few of you longer, and some shorter. For those who have known me over time, you know that I'm constaly searching for answers, always inquiring about beleifs, explinations, and views that other people live there lives around in our lives journeys. I've gone through childhood being the kid always sitting in the corner of the schoolyard against the fence, eating his lunch, just thinking, or as it was usually a combonation of the first two and the constant paranoia of the other kids in the schoolyard, just sitting there, waiting for the next thoughtless child to throw a ball at my head, or run by and kick dirt in my face, come and push me down, etc. I'm sure you can all relate, that whole "I'm cool cause im a jerk to people" mindset so many seem to have.
My first real friend I got wasn't till I was in 4th grade, and even then, it was only 4th grade. A new school finished being built, and he was zoned for it, so I returned back to school for my 5th and 6th grade school years with not a real friend to stand by me with. Of course we kept our friendship close when not in school. Time went on, my friend, David, lived with his family who were, for the most part at that time, strongly Mormon. I had gone to chruch with him probably more times then I could guess. Though my intentions then, weren't as I think they should have been. I went more to be with my friend then to learn about the Mormon Religeon and there views and beliefs. Durring these two years, I returned back to my sulkened state of constant riticule and disapointment.
Then I went to 7th grade, there I met my second friend, Mike. Then continueing to 9th grade where I first began to gain more real friends. The entire time, watching my little brother, whos about 3 years younger then me, haveing no trouble what so ever getting friends. Ironically enough, along with me gaining the majority of friends when I hit 9th grade. My brother went into the 'no friends' slump that I had grown up in, when he hit 9th grade. And personally, Ithink it's affected him alot more then me, and I constantly worry about him. Though he does continue to get great grades(A's) in school, which I'm very proud of him for it.
Durring my senior year, I got an E-mail from someone named Roscael. He was replying to a post I made on a Cetacean Oriented website,(cetacean is the scientific term for the family consisting of dolphins, whales, and porposes) telling me that he had read my post and was looking for a friend to talk with. I responded and within, I think it was 3 months, he told me that he was a dragon. At this time, I've seen all over the internet about people becomeing dragons, and furrs, and such. And ever since I first heard about it, I've been extremly curious about it. E-mailed many others asking about it, but never getting a reply. Anyways, to get on subject, I asked him how it happened. There, he explained to me it wasn't a physical transformation or anything, but a kind of spiritul one in a way. My memories are way to clouded about much more then this, and I really want to avoid from butchering anyones words by accident. So I'll sum this section up in a short nutshell. He told me that he could make mind links with poeple, if he could find there energy source. I asked him if he could do it for me, and he agreed to try that night when he went to sleep. Next morning I woke up to him online and asked if it worked. He told me it did and that he saw that I had both a dragon and dolphin in my heart. And that I would have to chose one to become my soul, and the other would gladly reside and stay with me in my heart. I think about a week went by before I felt in my heart, what the right choice was. And I chose dragon. I could feel something that was largly unfamiliar to me, but at the same time, greatly familiar to me, and it scared me. I started getting doubt of who I was, and this is the main point where I started wondering about life, its purposes, its causes, its results. And I went through a phase of about 3 months where I would randomly get so depressed while lieing in bed, and physically cry myself to sleep, the entire time asking 'God' why I was forced to live in such a horrid cast. The stress of knowing who I was, yes still having doubt about it despite how strong my feelings were, began to take its toll on me. I slowly began to lose hope in any sort of faith, yurning for my true form so badly, I would say aloud, hopeing that 'Satan' was listening, telling him that I would give anything for my true form back, though I think I strictly said, I'de give anything but my mind, heart, and soul. Eventually, I lost one of my jobs to this deep depressed phase.
As time went, and Christmas day neared as the months closed, I met others who felt as I did. And grew very close to Roscael, becomeing close mates with eachother. Durring these times, Roscael introduced me to two very meaningful beings to me, my spirit sister Kaerou, and my spirit brother Khranok, and through them, I eventually met the rest of my spirit family, as well as my blood sister from my past life as a dragon. Me and Roscael eventually broke up, and about 3 or 4 months later, Roscael made one of the bravest posts I've seen him make, explaining to everyone that what he has told everyone about his past, his visions hes had, him being a dragon, even about his 'true love' from back home in Puerto Rico, was all a lie. This did hit me, in the sense of, "Is all I beleive about myself a lie?" and another month or so went by, durring this time, my phantom limbs, my memories of the past, and my empathy gained in strength and frequency. Ironically as it sounds, I found I truelly was a dragon, despite being told that everything Roscael said to me to help me awake my past to me, were lies. I know, in my heart, that I was a dragon non the less. And eventually to where im at now.
Along with me rediscovering my draconic past, it gave me a whole new confidense to confront life and its problems, but it was just as much of a curse, as it was a blessing, and I quickly gained an ego along with it. I quickly gained a mindset that I was better then humans. And blindly beleived what _I_ thought was the "true" way a dragon was, was a set fact. I started many many countless arguements cause of this egotistical induced blindness. I owe my mind finally being cleared, after over a year of being blinded, to my RL and OL family and friends. No matter how much I sputtered out unbased nonsense to try and "support" what I was saying, you all continued to stand by my side, throughout my constant oncommings of onslaughts. And yes, I must thank those of you who didn't stand by my side the entire time. I truelly regret destroying the friendships we shared because I was so blinded by my own self pride. To those, I thank my friends and family in RL: Adam, Matt, David, Mike, Jessica, Arod(Alex), Danny, L-bird(Lawren), and basically everyone that was a usual at the "Rad Pad", Ed, Aaron, my Mom, my Dad, my Brother Kevin, Aunt Linda and Auntie Debbie, my Uncle Harvey who died a proud man and lived a full wonderful, careing life, and my Grandma and Grandpa Dyer and Gibbs. My OL friends and family, Longbottle, Drakkor, Delfi, Calaphin, Gekko, Dolphin, Dolpha, Roscael, And all the others that were always there and willing to try and help on Draconic, icq, msn, and aim, My spirit sister Kaerou, my spirit sister and mate Zoria, my spirit brother Khranok, who despite appologizing to me so many times for not being there for me, he truelly has almost always been there for me, my other spirit brothers, Pyro, Tianis, Krakath, Ryoken, and Kartonis. And my Blood sister from my past life, Altenia, who I share so many fond memories of our hatchlinghood we had then, with. Without all of you there helping me and ecourageing me to keep going, I would have never been the person you all love and who loves you, you see before you today
sonst sind noch keine grossen Gednaklichen erfolge zu verzeichnen, mal sehen was kommt
Gruss URU(Draclik)
